Okay! Well, I've been feeling a lot better, but it is definitely a two steps forward, one step back process. The hardest thing to accept is that I won't get "back to normal". I keep thinking, okay tomorrow I will get back into my routine: cleaning, shopping, exercising, visiting friends... and then that day will come and I will be hit with morning sickness, heartburn, and fall asleep at 7pm. I keep trying to tell myself that my approach to this process has always been to survive it. To do my best. But its frustrating to finally have built this harmonious relationship with my body and now its this stranger that won't do what I want, no matter what I eat or how I care for it!
The funniest thing is that I am starting to feel like there is really an infant in there. Especially when I am reading a book in the evening and I start to feel hungry (even though I could swear I had just finished eating), and I think to myself, 'okay, a few more pages and I will get up and fix something' and thirty seconds later my stomach is raging for food. There is no wait time for this baby. If I'm hungry, I am hungry now. If I need to pee, I need to do that now. This morning I woke up at 3am, feeling just awful. I drank some water and tried to go back to sleep, hoping that would help. Ten minutes later when my stomach was still rolling and aching, I had to give in and try some graham crackers (even though I really didn't want them)... and eventually I was able to go back to sleep. The night before we had been woken up a few times by Fatso, who was sick all night. We laughed that our cats better not be high maintenance when the baby comes, although I'm sure we will be up anyway.
I do have a little belly now. Its been filling out toward the top, instead of just the bottom. I haven't made the transition to maternity wear yet, but its coming soon. I will post a pic next week. We have made the announcement to the world (and to every cashier I have talked to since January), so the joy is flowing. I am having trouble waiting for each stage. I was really excited to tell everyone, and now I am really anxious to find out if it is a boy or a girl. So excited to meet this baby!